I bumped into David at school on Thursday. It was really weird, really awkward, and short. At first, I felt resentment and then, just complete awkwardness because I was with Gigi.
Then, I realized I knew him for years. Way too long to just stay angry, especially over something as silly as a crush and unrequited infatuation. I mean, I've moved on from then. I've got other boys on my mind and there's someone special in my life now.
So, I added the kid on Facebook as an attempt to regain some friendship of whatever was left. Right now we're just at three sentences of the beginning of awkward chit-chat.
I mean, when he approached me yesterday, he seemed friendly while I was too shocked to react in a kind way. I kind of just wanted him to go away, but as soon as I walked out the building I realized I was being really rude and even went on to say, "Man, I fucking hate that kid" to Gigi, which caused her to turn around to make sure he was out of earshot. I kind of immediately regretted saying that as soon as those words came out of my mouth because I don't really have a good reason to hate him.
He was more of a friend to me than someone I had a crush on and I let pure stupidity get in the way of that. I realized that I'm trying to be a better person and if David can't see past me being an stand-offish bitch for those 40 seconds of shocked resentment, then we're better off not talking. If we decide to continue on as acquaintances, then great. I can then restore some hope into my bank of humanity.
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